Our entire pack of papers was sent out to the agency on Saturday! SO unbelievable happy that it is over and done with! I will not sugar coat it and say that it was easy work. It was very time consuming (about 6 months!), and yes, a pain in the rear :)...but SO worth it! I take comfort in the joy that we have now done all we can do. From here on in it is in the Lord's hands. Not that it wasn't before too, but there was a lot in MY hands. There is officially nothing left that Jon or I can do except pray that God places our profile book in the hands of the right birth mother.
Nothing about adoption is easy. I got a phone call from my mom a few days ago about the birth mom that almost picked us a few weeks ago right before my surgery. Jon and I were so upset about how much we ran around, trying to make things work on such short notice (because she led us to believe she really wanted to chose us), only to have her chose another family 2 days later. That was probably one of the craziest weeks of my life. Well, we found out that she had the baby. The adoptive family that she chose was at the hospital for the birth...and when she gave birth and saw the baby, she decided to keep him. There are so many ways to look at this. Most of you probably look at that mom with anger thinking of how selfish that was, but can you imagine giving your child away under any circumstances? I know I most certainly could not. As much as us adoptive parents want a child, isn't it truly the best if a child can stay with their biological parents, as long as it is a safe situation? Yes. Absolutely. I grieve for the adoptive family that walked away without a son. I grieved for us when we thought we were going to have another little boy to love and lost him just as they did. But, that mamma loved that precious baby boy. HER boy.
So we continue to wait. Patiently. Well, as patiently as we can.
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